One of the biggest criticisms I get from family is that I do everything alone. I go most places alone; shopping, to the cinema, to the theatre and recently travelling. As an introvert, I’m alright being alone. I recharge easily when I’m by myself or when I’m alone in a crowd. I crave social interaction but I don’t usually desperately need it. I’m okay being alone.
My being an introvert has helped me learn certain things, such as how to deal with mental health issues and how to take extra precautions without even thinking. I’m also pretty sure that my mental health issues were exacerbated by this aspect of my personality, and why I can be prone to relapse. I have a habit not to go out of my way to socialise and I isolate myself, which is a bad habit to get into. I’m pretty sure it’s partly why I got ill.
That being said, I think that there is a certain strength in being able to do things alone but that doesn’t mean I don’t get lonely. On my last full day in Bruges I became quite upset and then desperately wished I had someone with me, but I was able to get through it and deal with it. I’m kind of worried about an upcoming trip to Japan as I will be with friends for most, if not all of the time. I don’t know how to deal with so much human interaction, which will be a major struggle for me.
I know that I wouldn’t really be me if I wasn’t as introverted. It’s a major part of my personality and how I navigate through situations, but at the same time, it’s important to push myself to try new things and experiences in order to grow as a person.